Your smile heals me and hurts me
Let me ask you one question. Can I fall in love with someone who
loves another person? If yes, you are at the point I wanted to be, but if no I do
not want to hear your rotten words. Leave me alone and give me my way to my
beloved Asma. She is named Asma. I am here to tell you why I ha
ve crossed such a
long distance. It is only one thing. It is your smile! You have what I cannot
call human beauty. Your structure, voice, and laughing are deniable magic. They
pushed me towards you at the moment I have seen. They intuitively commanded me
to love you. Are they what told me to love or something else? Your smile was
behind all that. When you smile I think the whole world smiles. Yes, the sky
smiles, the mountains smile, the stars also smile and the most beautiful you
have is your smile. Wonderful! It is a medical instrument. It can be treated
all diseases because I heal all I have. It heals me outside. It heals me
inside. It is all about therapy. It was said before, “Smile is free therapy”.
Your smile is free therapy. If it was not, I would be mad. You have absolutely
well-designed and created lips. You have white and flattened teeth. You have
colored gum. All these are what make your smile magic. I have one picture on my
phone. You are smiling. I look at it more than 3 hundred times a day. It clears
all ambiguity in my life. It gives me hope, even clear hope. That smiling
picture was a wonderful gift. It gives me constant energy in my day. I am lucky
to have that on my phone. Your smile is all I have day and night. That smile is
meant to my life the whole world beside me. Before this, I have life
challenging stuff. I was full of stress. One time, my world turned to the other
side. That time is a turning point. It is a historic time. I have never thought
that I was such lucky. One man can have that. Lucky one. Your smile. Your
smile. Your smile. It is wonderful.
One thing ruins my happiness. It is that you are in another
person’s life other than me He is the right one to have that smile. You are his
and he is yours. It does bother me and does not. It does because I am on the
verge of fainting for your love. It is painful that you did not come in front
of me and smile. As your smile heals me in this case, it hurts me. When you
miss your therapy, the only thing you have hurting stuff. I am scolding myself for
why I am late. If I had come early, would I have had you? Probably sure and not
sure. Will I have your smile when you marry? Will I see you? Can I able to look
at your pictures? There is a bigger question than those: How will my life look
like? Will I cry or not? Your smile is behind all these. It is nuclear that
devastates people’s hearts. It destroys one’s heart. It is the power that can
lead you to happiness or sorrow lakes. It took me to both lakes. One time I was
at the bank of the river of happiness and another time river of despair and
sorrow. It took me to the two sides of life—the happiness side and the sorrowful
side. It is painful and despairing. It is happiness and joy. It is sweet and
bitter. It is lucky and misfortunate. It is the whole world, as you are like the
complete cosmos. You are my world and someone else’s world.
One thing will be living inside me, even in my grave; that is your
smiling picture. The reminiscence I have had that picture. I promise I will be
loving you. You will never be out of my memory. When I go to the beach, see the
waves and hear their melody like yours, when I look at the sky and see being
smiling like yours, when I walk in nature and see all the world smiling similar
to you being happy and smiling. You will be inside me any time and in any
situation. Smile! Your smile! Please, smile!
Ali Hussein Ahmed
